May 19th, 2013

broken kaleidoscope

I always fight back at what
I can’t see, what others tout
as something to celebrate;
I am just me.

a bit of broken crumbled bits,
maybe colours jeweled, more
are earthen and jaded, jagged
and bitten; undefined

should someone care
to reach in, try to rearrange,
a collage might appear
for a moment’s time

just as often, out of habit,
crushed edges bite back
in defense, of toppled walls,
set in mardi gras stone.

what more can break forth
from crushed dreams,
discarded dross, than litter
strewn about, as I pretend
my way through this balancing act:

dancing from trip wire
to land mine, wondering when
the next garrot will marry me
to the guillotine.

I. a.m. j.u.s.t. m.e.


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May 18th, 2013
Quoting the Cosmos

I sit here under
a thumbnail moon -
knowing you hang
your night’s shade
by his same trail

Each moment spent
silent, without you
- counted in starbursts
pinned to midnight eclipse

Quoting the cosmos:
The infinity of our love
shares this heavenly
canopy with the Gods-

Yet you worry your
posted letters.

But the lemon tides
wash clean the American red,
cleansing your palate of
rich foreign delicacies

The sandalwood winds
carry cross the shores
bolstering the
redwood mailbox-

At the end of my
lonely lilac garden
it leans indecorously,
but patiently,
awaiting your
first class
heart.



~all rights reserved

Quoting the Cosmos

I sit here under
a thumbnail moon -
knowing you hang
your night’s shade
by his same trail

Each moment spent
silent, without you
- counted in starbursts
pinned to midnight eclipse

Quoting the cosmos:
The infinity of our love
shares this heavenly
canopy with the Gods-

Yet you worry your
posted letters.

But the lemon tides
wash clean the American red,
cleansing your palate of
rich foreign delicacies

The sandalwood winds
carry cross the shores
bolstering the
redwood mailbox-

At the end of my
lonely lilac garden
it leans indecorously,
but patiently,
awaiting your
first class
heart.

~all rights reserved

May 17th, 2013

Maybe-

It is in the silent grey of the mornings that I miss you most… Shrouded in solitude and wrapped in mounds of pillows and blankets, I stretch one foot out in search of the cool sheets and think that maybe your foot is out there somewhere too, searching for mine in this empty cold loneliness.
Maybe, you are laying in your bed, staring into the darkness, trying to read my heart, wondering, as I do, if love does always triumph over sadness…

Maybe, you are rolling to your side and tucking the pillows close to your chest, as I do, wishing you were safe in my arms as you bury your face and hate yourself for being stubborn and not just doing what your heart has been choking out past the tamped down tears and vacant smiles…
Maybe, your hand is heavy, as mine is, with needing that touch to cool the fevered pain and that touch, that tender brushing of fingertips to reignite those flames we have smothered with our foolish rain…

Maybe, I am, as you are, all alone..


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May 16th, 2013

overflow

I brought you my words
my heart always comes with them
I cannot give one
without strings to the other

to be an easy poet, willing
is like selling umbrellas with holes
or boats without oars
all fuss without function

I am work
- words bursting to overflow

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Earl’s Decree

trying not to count
these rain drops,
they belong to you,
the constant dribble
slips past my view

as grey geese glide
gently, trailing tales
of English morning
tea and walks along
far pebbled beaches

-cheery ‘ello you
rings round then
crackin’ up this
boat race once
headed down river-

all’s left, rivulets
run to refresh,
revive and set state
to bare and crazy,
count back the days

to the sun rise, once
and forever, set in rouge.


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(boat race refers to a cockney slang term meaning face. See http://www.phrases.org.uk/meanings/cockney-rhyming-slang.html for more)

May 15th, 2013
what would it take?

what words are left to be said
besides those that are better left in silence?

what if I could create with charcoal and paper, 
lines to connect from here within, to there, without-
taking shape in dimensions, beyond this second level banality

would it be that I could capture the world
in freeze frame time, still shots cropped, and 
dropped on canvas mattes of: 

children’s sunny candid smiles and 
happy grubby hands, reaching-
new born birds hatching robin blue, blind yet still begging-
tender spring shoots birthing, pale
and frail to verdant-
swollen creeks gurgle, splashing
a melodic song skipping over their beds-

would you tell me if the whisper of pencil against pad could overshadow the silence, the 
quietude captured in each miracle indigo blue moment,

or as the jet point wears to a dull ashen ache, 
as my crisp stream of words slows to a slow curdled trickle,

will wrinkles crease these hands that reach to grasp,
to gather in earnest, time and space, as if days long lost, cry for all our
fleeting tomorrows?

or, could you read my silence, the 
words better left unsaid 
in the beauty of what flows 
from my weary hands?

I have always only had my words, you
have always only had your silence, if
I had lines to connect from here to there, would you tell me,
what would it take?


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what would it take?

what words are left to be said
besides those that are better left in silence?

what if I could create with charcoal and paper,
lines to connect from here within, to there, without-
taking shape in dimensions, beyond this second level banality

would it be that I could capture the world
in freeze frame time, still shots cropped, and
dropped on canvas mattes of:

children’s sunny candid smiles and
happy grubby hands, reaching-
new born birds hatching robin blue, blind yet still begging-
tender spring shoots birthing, pale
and frail to verdant-
swollen creeks gurgle, splashing
a melodic song skipping over their beds-

would you tell me if the whisper of pencil against pad could overshadow the silence, the
quietude captured in each miracle indigo blue moment,

or as the jet point wears to a dull ashen ache,
as my crisp stream of words slows to a slow curdled trickle,

will wrinkles crease these hands that reach to grasp,
to gather in earnest, time and space, as if days long lost, cry for all our
fleeting tomorrows?

or, could you read my silence, the
words better left unsaid
in the beauty of what flows
from my weary hands?

I have always only had my words, you
have always only had your silence, if
I had lines to connect from here to there, would you tell me,
what would it take?


~all rights reserved

(Source: encanta-e-faz-bem, via void-dance)

May 14th, 2013

Emaciated

In that moment when you realise all you have planned for, every moment, and the total sum of all your dreams, has fallen away and left you stripped bare

- barely the silken sheathed covering, moulded round sunken corners and supple curves, falling to the deepened depths of a burdened heart which has fallen flat at his feet, drained of all guise and self-assurance -

It is in that moment, you could bear witness to your life sharing a whole new sense of being. Will you seek sustenance, renewed?


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May 13th, 2013
La Bota de Vino

Bursting at the seams, torn open-
la bota de vino, worn through from too much time shifting between hands and lips

No longer can we wet our thirst, soothe our parched desperations from it’s succulent sweet wine - for it has splashed upon the ground to swill around our lost feet.

Words now a murky pool - once a crisp clean line, three shadows deep - stain my darkened mind.

Yet, you are still what I desire.

I kick up what once was dust and find only clay - shaped to a figure moulded (im)partial, bleeding some shade of red, words I once rolled upon my tongue.

I had hoped you’d understand, I guess I misread.

The sound of the whispering dove mocks me as she wakes, taunting me with her knowing contented call - I have long been laying lost, pondering the waning moon.

Desire still burns, as does the rising sun, clearing away the early fog.  Dew glistens as glory crowning tender princely shoots of strong spring buds.  I ache with new bourne emotion; fresh sweet wine to share.

Busted seams, torn open, la bota de vino is worn through.  Sweet wine will ruin an old skin, split it apart and spill once again.

Only a new skin will preserve the new, sweet wine.

I had hoped that you’d understand.    “Garzón, a glass for one”.


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La Bota de Vino

Bursting at the seams, torn open-
la bota de vino, worn through from too much time shifting between hands and lips

No longer can we wet our thirst, soothe our parched desperations from it’s succulent sweet wine - for it has splashed upon the ground to swill around our lost feet.

Words now a murky pool - once a crisp clean line, three shadows deep - stain my darkened mind.

Yet, you are still what I desire.

I kick up what once was dust and find only clay - shaped to a figure moulded (im)partial, bleeding some shade of red, words I once rolled upon my tongue.

I had hoped you’d understand, I guess I misread.

The sound of the whispering dove mocks me as she wakes, taunting me with her knowing contented call - I have long been laying lost, pondering the waning moon.

Desire still burns, as does the rising sun, clearing away the early fog. Dew glistens as glory crowning tender princely shoots of strong spring buds. I ache with new bourne emotion; fresh sweet wine to share.

Busted seams, torn open, la bota de vino is worn through. Sweet wine will ruin an old skin, split it apart and spill once again.

Only a new skin will preserve the new, sweet wine.

I had hoped that you’d understand. “Garzón, a glass for one”.


~all rights reserved

(Source: incessantdelirium)

Where once we knew two,
It is now just I, alone -
Eyes hollow, now dry.

Where once we knew two,
It is now just I, alone -
Eyes hollow, now dry.

(Source: browndresswithwhitedots, via henri-charriere)

May 12th, 2013

Torn Stockings

Only a certain woman
can wear torn stockings.
Demure, polite, unsure?
No way.
A whore?
Just shoddy packaging.
She has to be a rebel,
pure and simple.

Now the imagination
can run with the ball.
She was in a fight.
Right or wrong -
she won!

You like that.

She’ll give you a come-on
just to spite you.

And you like that.

You want her to write you
in her diary,
score you out of ten.
You know she thinks,
‘men! fucking men!’
But then
there’s always one.
Somehow
you’ve begun
to believe you’re it.

Shit!
That’s how she fools them all.
You think you’re her hero,
her all-conquering handsome stranger.
Danger? What danger?

Watch out.

Coz
maybe you will get her
to put her fists down,
save her from drowning -

but pretty soon
you’ll be floundering
around
in a whirlpool
and she’ll be walking away

in torn stockings

with one more notch in them

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